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in which I explore HP fandom______ Before I plunge into a rant, my new link-person is Hemlocke. Because she likes DWJ, and Howl, and Faramir. Not to mention Paris and jrock, apparently. So obviously a cool person. ^_^ And I really don't know how I missed DWJ growing up, as my parents were throwing British children's books at me my whole life. I did, however, manage to find Susan Cooper. Isn't Will wonderfully nerdy and nice? Though actually, I think my favourite character in the Dark is Rising books is probably Merriman, because he's so... Merlin-like. XD Sometimes skates a litte close to cliche, but the idea and the plot, quests and all, are just good. And Welsh-legend-y, once you get to The Grey King and Silver on the Tree, which are my favourites. Today, went to Ki-chan's and squealed over furuba and drew stuff for our friend's birthday. Now that I think about it, the results, for the card at least, are a bit... odd. -_-; We drew Ritsu going 'GOMEN NASAI' all over the front illustration, then the inside is a two-panel doodle of Ritsu continuing to rampage, getting glomped by a flying Ki-chan, and going poof, and then a giant SD monkey face. Labled (MONKEY.) And then 'happy birthday or something normal and space to write notes. And then the back is a super-cute pic of Ki-chan and me hugging our friend, à la Uo and Hana hugging Tooru. I really don't know why we thought this would be a good thing. Akito gets to be scarier and weirder every time I look at him. -_-; Needs to stop screwing everyone up! Gah. My new theory about Shigure is that the dream he, Ayame, and Hatori saw as children revealed that they were all actually characters in a shoujo manga. Needless to say, this freaked Aya and Hatori out, but Shigure still apparently thinks it's cool. And so, to keep their manga existance going eternally, Shigure is willing to do anything - even hurt Tooru, have an implied relationship with Akito, and general screw with everyone's lives. Because, you see, the manga can't end until the ambiguity is cleared up, at least somewhat, and Shigure is devoted to making sure that never happens. So, of course, the best solution is to lock him and Akito in that stupid dark room and keep the rest of the cast far, far away. *nodnod* Don't you think so? So, I've been poking around Fiction Alley, reading a couple short fics and most of the info section there, and same at Diagon Alley (well, less there. Their intro stuff was dull. XD And I have a short attention span.) Of course, the point was not actually to read the info - usually along the lines of 'this is slash, this is a ship, punctuation and grammar are your friends' - as to try to investigate the nature of the fandom. It's interesting. ^^ I don't really want to read much HP fic, for reasons that will be discussed, but the fandom itself I find rather interesting. I think you could make a case for greater diva-ness and clique-forming than anime fandom as a result of having one centralized and relatively new fandom. With anime, people already know each other to some extent or another, they mostly just sort of reshuffle, gaining some people and losing some others, whenever a new series pops up. And it's v. unstructured when the focus shifts, too, and there are of course fandoms that overlap in people and ones that don't as much, and all that. I think you could also make the case that centralized fandom (I guess I mostly mean ficcing and all that comes with it by that) is responsible for slightly higher expectations as to quality. At the very least, the existence of something like either Alley, which are both Better Than FF.net in general, wouldn't be possible in anime fandom because of the number and diversity of series. One interesting point is (you knew it was coming) slash. Slash in anime fic - I'll just call it all slash for now, saves time - is often much less alien to the original a lot of the time. I don't mean that the HP characters couldn't all be gay, I mean they live in a society where most people aren't, and they've probably been raised as more or less straight. So in a realistic fic of that nature there would have to be many problems with acceptance and such. Whereas lots of anime (that I watch, which probably means shoujo-ish things often), either isn't as firmly based in a 'real world' or has lots of slashiness already. Or maybe I'm just more used to the idea of animated bishounen falling in love than little British wizardlets. *shrugs* In any event, I think you'd have to work pretty hard to make HP slash happen and make it still bear some resemblance to HP. And it seems, in some respects, that anime fen (at least enough of them) have all read and written enough flaming slash for being evil is evil, live and let live rants to last them a while. Which is good, because they all have exactly the same points, and have sometimes reached the realization that slash also should have some glimmerings of characterization and such. Whereas a 'thoughtful essay' on Fiction Alley only has the aformentioned flaming-slash-is-evil rant. It seems to be a natural fangirl tendency to slash, once they get used to the idea, but that doesn't mean that all slash is a Good Thing. I am, of course, a tad biased on this point, because fanon!Draco annoys me to no end - the angsty miserable boy who has an abusive family (and why his father all the time, anyway? Why not his mother? o.o Is there some crucial fact here that I'm missing?) and really just wants, underneath all that nasty facade, to be loved and accepted, preferably by his worst school enemy. -_-; I think he's more like Seishirou. XD Which is to say, you can write happy waffy things about him, but that doesn't change the fact that in anything resembling reality 'Seishirou' means 'unfeeling remorseless assassin'. Or, if you prefer, 'Draco' means 'hopelessly snobbish spoiled brat'. It's much more fun to work within those constraints and do something from that than it is to just wave a wand and have the ickier elements go poof. That form of wishful thinking was also found in one of the Ginny/Tom fics Eve-chama directed me to t'other day. It was a little funny, in a macabre sort of way - after Tom's done taking over Ginny's mind and trying to suck her soul out for his own nefarious plans, he skips right over feeling bad about making her the cause of all this bad stuff and nearly killing her in the process, and moves straight to flirting with her in her dreams. -_-; This is stupid. Tom may not exactly be Voldemort-level evil yet, but he obviously doesn't care about using people, even if it kills them or ruins their lives. And anyway, his evil and somewhat psychotic ways probably have some deep psychological reason that would need to be dealt with before he could go around getting in happy, waffy relationships. There's that whole thing with only being a memory, too, but hey. Obviously unimportant. XD ...Right, I managed to lose my other point. ^^ Feel stupid now. Oh well, I'm sure it will come back to me. Possibly something about clique-forming and literary pretentions. It's fun (especially when I know what the reference refers to, because then I get to feel all elitist and stuff too), but it annoys me when people take it too seriously. It's still fanfiction. Honestly.
Sophie stepped out onto the road: 01:21 a.m., Thursday, August 29, 2002 ramblings of a hunger-crazed fangirl______ I have made a discovery: drawing winged prettyboys is a good way to improve one's mood. I was feeling all uncreative, untalented, and blah for most of today, but this evening I had the idea of drawing my own fanservice. It worked marvelously. XD Will have to scan him sometime and color. He's rather pretty, really - long dark hair with at least one dyed streak, pointed ears, dragon wings (sounds so much better than bat, don't you think?), pretty eyes, much jrockish jewlery, and a shirt half off. XD So cliche, but it still makes me happy that I can draw it. Simple pleasures, I guess. I've also been amusing myself today by trawling ff.net. First I did a little research on digimon (and I think I'm more like Sora, too. Silly quiz-things.), then went looking for digimon fic. Found, as expected when a series is dubbed and popular, vast quantities of mediocrity. Very sad. The pairings got pretty funny, too - it seems like the anyone x anyone game is played with impunity among digimon ficcers. But it doesn't bother me much, because I know next to nothing about the series still, and because the randomness is pretty even across the board - unlike certain series' fandoms that tend towards exclusively pairing random prettyboy 1 with random prettyboy 2. The randomness in digimon at least seems to be pretty equal-opportunity. So anyway, this means I should go back and reread Eve-chama's digimon fic now that I can at least keep most of the characters straight. With matching mental pictures, even. ^^; I haven't spent the time to do that for a series I don't know in a long time. (A sign that I'm getting a life? Nahh. XD) Where would I go about finding Digimon, were I to attempt watching it? I get zero tv, as far as chanels that have anything I might be remotely interested in on them - not that I'm quite sure about that, since I don't watch them. But hey. ^^ Anyway, I eventually found a few things - that 'favourite fics' thing is very valuable, let me tell you. Which brings me to the original point of this entry - to plug Dreamwalk Blue. I was rather expecting to like it when it started out with a few T.S. Eliot and Dorothy Sayers references (I wonder, is it somewhat funny that Dorothy Sayers is being obliquely referenced in someone else's work? Given that it is sometimes rather hard to follow Peter and Harriet's conversations when one does not get all the references.) And I was not dissapointed. Not yet, anyway. I don't know what's with this 'plot' thing; it may or may not turn out to be believable and interesting, but meanwhile there's young Dumbledore in a silver Daimler, and I am a happy person. XD Am slowly (or not so) turning into a Draco fangirl. The horror. I imagine this is a bit similar to what Ki-chan felt when she made certain realizations about the collective intelligence, or lack thereof, of most Legolas/Orlando Bloom fangirls. -_-; Oh well, at least I like him when he's being IC, not when he's renounced his former ways and become a kind, self-sacrificing, loving person to be paired with whoever the author's other favourite character happens to be. Sigh. Kim-chan, I wish I could come over this week, but I'm cutting things awfully close with the summer homework by taking off for Thara's party as it is. At least, my parents think I am, and that's what makes the difference. -_-; Blarg. I'm really sorry, I want to come visit you. Stupid homework. x_x (oh, and I happen to be particularly fond of my Noir layout [shameless plug!] as well. So grungy, yet not at all. XD) Since I last posted about art stuff, I've done two more Utena wallpapers (here and here - yay for pretentious use of poetry! XD), one sketch and messy coloring of a pic of Meg's MU*-ing character, Dtanzi, and one obscure joke.
Sophie stepped out onto the road: 12:09 a.m., Tuesday, August 27, 2002 Ok, I know too many online quizzes are a bad thing, but they're so addictive. ^^;
(I sort of figured. XD Though I know nothing about digimon.) And Kim's Recca thing said I was Mikagami. XD XD So funny. Because you all know I'm a cold, obsessive guy. -_- I just like them. An odd trend, that. But Aya, Aoshi...
Sophie stepped out onto the road: 12:31 a.m., Monday, August 26, 2002 layout envy______ Once again, I feel horribly incompetent when it comes to layouts. Every so often I come across one of these sites that makes me go '....' and want to bang my head against a wall and give up graphical sorts of things. But I know the only way to get better is practice, blahblahblah... sigh. So, because I want to think about other things, I will now bring you (drumroll please) a list of the things hanging on the walls of my room! Anyway. That's enough of that. It's probably pretty boring, anyway. ^^ I'm thinking about making a layout archive... it might be fun. *shrugs* And I do have an awful lot of old layouts. ^^ Five here, four fanart-page, two each wallpaper and general pages... I spend too much time on this stuff, I'm thinking. But hey.
Sophie stepped out onto the road: 08:13 p.m., Saturday, August 24, 2002 Because it's something I can comment on, and doesn't seem to already have been said. I love Tolkien's works dearly, but that doesn't mean I want to read derivative stuff over and over. There's no point in trying to write fantasy like Tolkien - either you're exactly the same as him, in which case why should anyone read it (and I don't see how you could be, because you wouldn't be being original anyway), or you're like him but not as good, so again, why bother? I mean. A good book doesn't base itself on trying to be something else. It doesn't work. I remember reading something, somewhere, that had a thought about a purpose of fairy-tales (it was either On Fairy-Stories itself or that essay on Tolkien that was basically a reiteration of same, or maybe it was from that encyclopedia of fantasy in the school library...) being to go into a new world, one that the reader hasn't imagined before, and by wonder in this subcreation reinvigorate wonder in actual creation. And then the problem of fantasy that doesn't try anything new, for instance that which would result from only trying to be like Tolkien or Lewis, is there is no wonder in a new world, because it's very familiar. So that purpose fails, and the point falls back on escapism. Not that I don't like some books that are basically escapist, but... still. I wouldn't want to only read that sort of thing. It would be boring. New pics and stuff will be linked in time.
Sophie stepped out onto the road: 02:15 p.m., Saturday, August 24, 2002 blah______ Sakura, I found an ok cast pic. Top row: Oujirou/Oujirou (little, faded out pics), three of Misaki. Second row: Misaki, Kaede, Sai, Ringo. Third: Ringo, Shouko, two little Shouko, Oujiro. Not quite the whole cast, but at least the majority. Oh, and a Series of Unfortunate Events movie? Really? o.o It just... wouldn't movie well. So much of the humor is in style and narrative bits, and movies that rely that much on narration tend to end up blah. Which would be very sad. (Am reading The Reptile Room now, albeit slowly. ^_^;) I love having a tracker. It's just too much fun. Have produced yet another pic. This time, I finally got around to cging that Shape of the Heart pic I've had lying around forever. I still like it mostly, though one of Sakura's legs is at a rather painful angle. But hey. Cute. Still, however, am making no progress with my stupid schoolwork, feeling guilty as a result, and haven't come up with what to draw for the LotR thing. Sigh.
Sophie stepped out onto the road: 01:12 a.m., Saturday, August 17, 2002 Things I Forgot______ Point the first: Connotations of Snobbery is up in all its glory, and may in due time even have some posts. I'm proud of it. Point the second: In my continuing efforts to avoid schoolwork, I made a wallpaper. It's in here somewhere; too lazy to go get the exact link. Is Sai and Kaede of Angelic Layer, with me pretending I know how to use those nifty swirly grunge brushes. Fun. For me, at least. XD Point the third: I have a tracker thing now. One of two refers thus far was from someone searching on Ayumi Hamasaki and Christianity. o.o; S'all. *falls over* I'm tired.
Sophie stepped out onto the road: 12:35 a.m., Friday, August 16, 2002 pic stuff______ Well, I've been productive, though not in the blogging sense. But I actually finished a picture! One that I started in September, but hey. ^^ And I CG'd one of my friend's, too. The friend's-CG is here, and my pic is here. It's Juri-inna-dress. A pretty red dress with decorative orange roses and dramatic lighting, even. XD I'm so proud of the cg right now, though. I didn't think I could do the stones that well. And I've remained v. fond of the composition, though her face and hair have started to annoy me since I drew them. I'm thinking of this CG as sort of a preparation for entering the TORn fanart contest. And I will enter. (What homework? *dies*) Will finally draw that Faramir and Eowyn pic, I think. But maybe not. Maybe I should do something smaller, less grand, so I can make it better...? Ack! *runs around in circles* I really want to do a good job for this - I know I can draw at least as well as most of the people who do LotR fanart, especially if one allows for age range. Must think of a good subject. I think... Elrohir and Elladan would be fun (yay pretty darkhaired elf-boys on horses! XD), possibly with Aragorn's flag - oh, speaking of which, I had a moment of geek joy t'other day when, while watching FotR, I realized that movie-Isildur has the tree, stars, and crown of Elendil on his breastplate. ^.^ My favourite thing about the movie is probably that sort of obsessive detail that's right or makes sense or whatever - for instance, things from Gondor tend to have a wing/feather motif, similar to the Assyrian style of wings - and that's the style that looks best (in my opinion) as a winged helm. And another reoccuring motif in clothing from Gondor is the tree. *sigh* So happy. I wonder if I could get the horses to look good enough if I did Elladan and Elrohir. *ponders* Cos they're a royal pain to shade, but it would be cool. Or.. hm... could do the view into Denethor's palantir after he dies, though that's kinda morbid. -_-; Or perhaps Arwen and Elrond. Problem would be de-movie-izing them. Oh well, I'll think of something. I just discovered, while looking for some random text to put on a Sai-and-Kaede collage, that there are Angelic Layer character songs. Now I feel a bit stupid, but hey. Fun. ^_^ I've downloaded Kaede's, but I can't find Sai's... however, the lyrics to Kaede's are very cute. And if I put them on a wallpaper with those two, it will imply lots of waffy love. XD But I think I will anyway, cos I don't have any other lyrics. Alas. If only Sai's song were translated - I somehow don't see her singing about how smiling and wanting to share her love.
Sophie stepped out onto the road: 09:15 p.m., Thursday, August 15, 2002 yay for pretentious ranting!______ It is an interesting question: can one make generalizations about a specific culture? Of course, one can, but that isn't quite what I meant. History books do so right and left, especially with past-cultures. I guess that's fine, though it'd be better to get a sense of the culture by knowing details, and then making your own generalizations (something last year's US history book did not entirely grasp. -_-;) In that case, I guess you could say it would be ok to try making generalizations about more modern cultures, ones that are still around, but that it's likely to have the same problems as other types of treating relatively recent events like history - not enough perspective; one can't tell yet what's important, only guess. But saying that such a generalization is bad because it overlooks individuals and lumps an entire group together is kind of silly. That's what generalizations /do/. They can be helpful if you take them well - which is to say, you realize that it's obviously not going to be true in every situation, but may be useful in understanding the group as a whole. And lumping a group together - well, if there are similarities among people, you can call them a group. And there will /be/ similarities. Honestly, I wouldn't think this is too difficult. If one presumes that one should not generalize because it will offend someone, one loses all the potential benefits that could come from a better understanding of a group or culture, even if said generalizations do not apply to absolutely everyone in that group. Because it's a given that they don't. >_> Yes, that was pretentious. Sorry. Needed to be said, and right now I'm rather tired and vaguely annoyed, and so not in the mood to go to all the work that sounding less pretentious would require. -_-; Just a little more, I think. One thing I like about blogging is that I can write stuff that I probably wouldn't say to someone face to face - who would want to hear me talk (mainly) about myself for this long, anyway? And in the cases when I rant, it doesn't bother me so much if I feel like it's getting pretentious and overbearing, because no one has to listen. They can, and probably would if it was boring, skim, or just leave altogether. Conversely, if I get an email or comment or something by someone who thinks I'm stupid/overbearing/rude/dead wrong, I don't have to care. If it's someone I know and respect, or want to know, I probably would care. At the moment, for example, I'm realizing I went on for longer than I should have and without checking what I was saying on the ml, and feel kind of stupid for it, but that's mainly because I feel like I should have done something different. 'Course, being incoherent and obsessive in front of people I want to get to know didn't help, either, but whatever. I'm not caring much. And while a comment from someone I don't much know that made sense and was relevant and all, and thought I was stupid, etc., would bother me, in theory, it doesn't matter. Just... blah, I forget where I was going with this. Something like: if I post, should be sure I don't care if people read it. If they read it and are offended, then I shouldn't care, because I was confident enough to post it in the first place. Yeah, something like that.
Sophie stepped out onto the road: 01:50 p.m., Wednesday, August 14, 2002 horray for time zone changes______ Related to Ki-chan's Furuba Thought: What if the thing Shigure wants to make eternal is Akito, or some aspect of him? Not very sense-making, but consider: Akito somehow bears their curses, and in the anime at least he makes a comment about how (1) everyone would be happy if he died, and (2) he's what's keeping them alive. This makes little to no sense, but I blame it on the fansubbers. ^^ But maybe the dream Shigure, Hatori, and Ayame had was something that had to do with Akito's birth leading to a way of him actually talking their curses, like taking them away (as opposed to just apparently aggreivating them -_-;) and making that eternal. The results might have been pretty frightening - it could even be that Akito's terrorization of all or most of the Junnishi and then their being somewhat healed by Tooru are steps in this, since Shigure says that Tooru is following his plan and he doesn't care if she gets hurt in the process. So that would frighten the little boys, but Hatori and Aya could well have forgotten it over time, while Shigure, apparently, latched onto it as his one goal. And given how devoted he is to whatever it is, if Akito is central to getting it, Shigure would cherish him. It's pretty obvious Akito doesn't get much cherishing, and is pretty fragile. Think about it. I think the only thing that Shigure could want enough to make 'eternal' would be release from the curse. The Utenalikeness of all this is making my head hurt. Suddenly now Akito is both Akio and Anthy, openly manipulative as well as manipulative. And Anthy's manipulation is always more based on pain - Akio takes desires and twists them, Anthy does what she's told, but works by fear. And Akito is the master of telling people what they most fear. You know, I'd been wishing there was something I could do with that Chiron and Prometheus myth that fascinates me so much, and I just got it. It's hugely obvious. Not that I'll actually write, just contemplate, but still. ^^ It's like this: Prometheus is immortal and trapped in unending pain. He can only be saved by the suffering and death of another immortal. Now think: Anthy is trapped in immortal pain, constantly, for something she did that was only an attempt to save someone she loved. She can only be saved if someone else in her world - that means someone else in the garden where hourglasses run slow, another immortal - sacrifices him- or herself to pain and possibly death, who knows, because no one's done it before - can an immortal die? I don't know what happened to Chiron afterwards, or Prometheus, either. They both drop out of the stories. It's unknown if anyone even remembers them properly. I love having these oh-so-brilliant 2 AM observations, especially when they involve myth and Utena and archetypes. Should really read more Hero With a Thousand Faces. Oh, about Rin's situation being like Hiro - the thing with Hiro was that he felt he was responsible for Kisa being hurt, right? And as a result he separated himself from Kisa and became all grouchy. So maybe someone Rin cares about was hurt by Akito in such a way that she feels it's her fault, and that's the result of her withdrawing. It could even be Haru who she feels guilty about, which would be happy because it would mean that the grouchy I'm-tired-of-you thing would just be reaction and she still likes him. I don't know of anything that Akito's done, or has happened, that's particularly traumatizing, to Haru, but since he's Junnishi it's pretty much a given. Plus, I think he wouldn't be very open about something like that anyway. And he's far too outwardly mentally stable for that to /actually/ be all. It's furuba. XD Now I shall go to sleep. ^^
Sophie stepped out onto the road: 02:04 a.m., Sunday, August 11, 2002 In the category of Things I Forgot: new links! To people I do not know, but hey. I read their blogs (or would) anyway, so whatever. And I do like hording links. ^^ Anyway, I have just posted to the WLFA. Be proud of me, dear. XD Though perhaps I should have asked you first if I wanted to write a 'topic post'? Oh dear. ^^ I fear is greatly incoherent, but I care not. *singing* Where oh where has my grammar gone~? The lack-of-internet has taken the remaining shreads of my sanity and gone far, far away with them. Meg and I have hatched a plot to blog together until I get her addicted and she does it on her own. XD Should be fun. She thinks we should mock stupid people (in fandom, I mean) as well as just being random, which might be nice. Mostly I'm not sure enough of my opinions to air them publicly - or they've already been said several times, more like. It's kind of funny how we're both quite shy in general with people we don't know v. well, but together we are loud and violent and insane, and it's lots of fun. XD I want to be home so I can start layouting so we can start blogging. Oh, and we already have a name: Connotations of Snobbery. I love it. It happened like this: we were in 'games club' at school, which is a good way to avoid doing actual work during our eight period, and someone wanted a definition of... a word. That I no longer remember. -_-; But my definition was something like 'high class, with connotations of snobbery.' And we turned to each other and said, more or less at the same time, 'that sounds like a good name for a blog!' So it was. Or will be, or something. o.o; Now I confuse myself. I have begun reading Rhapsody. It's... well, I like it at the moment. The very beginning, with Meridion, was cool. After that, with Gwydion and Emily, I found it boring and cliched. Gwydion is a hormone-ridden little teenaged boy who thinks he's found his soulmate because she's the first girl he's happened to lust after. It's very sweet. -_-; And I don't actually doubt that they love each other, etc., because there's no point in doubting the author on her own creations. But once we got that over with and went on to Rhapsody and Achmed and Grunther, or whatever his name is, it was pretty cool. Still unoriginal, but cool. Let's all go climb down the World Tree to the center of the world and confront the sleeping serpent who will bring death and destruction when he awakes! Let's have a gorgeous ex-prostitute turned bard/sorcerer/generally perfect but with a certain rude charm always reserved for those with startlingly green eyes, a sarcastic assassin whose name is feared the world over, and a hideous but friendly old warrior-outlaw who defies the 'monster' stereotype imposed on him by a cruel world! And then we can prove to be the Children of the Prophecy handily printed in the front of the book and troop around the nifty map full of exotic names and save the world from the evil demon-priest! -_-; I think reading this right after finishing Dark Lord of Derkholm (which I loved, incidentally. It's sort of a parody of the stereotyped fantasy novel, too. XD DWJ~!) might not have been the best of ideas. But hey, I like Achmed. He's cool. Rhapsody is fun too if I set aside my instinctual dislike for the perfect yet spunky (isn't that a horrid word? XD) heroine. I want more DWJ books. Alas. But going home tomorrow!
Sophie stepped out onto the road: 08:15 p.m., Friday, August 9, 2002 Well, I'm still alive. ^^ My parents finally manged to change flight arrangements, so I'll be coming home at the end of this week - Saturday, I think. At the moment I'm stealing my aunt's computer, so this shall be breif. Visiting cousins is always a bit odd, to see how their families are different from mine. The ones we're staying with now live on a ranch, which is fun. Horses (the cousin my age and the next younger one ride dressage and such), sheep (the next-to-oldest cousin raises and sells sheep, and she just got the cutest and most hyperactive border collie puppy that she's going to train to do sheepdog sorts of things), chickens, lots of cows, several cats that only my uncle pays much attention to... so of course their family is v. strict because everyone has to help. Whereas the cousins we were just with are much more 'normal' than my family. It's funny, because they also have a girl my age, and when we were younger we all played this elaborate pretending game together. Now my cousin Sarah (who lives on the ranch) and I still make up bits to the story, which gets longer and more complicated every time, but Rachel would probably think it was kind of amusing and not something she cares about. Maybe all this says is I haven't grown up, but then I don't think I'd want to be normal in the sense of trying to be friends with the 'cool' people and worrying about typical silly teenager things. I'll keep my fantasy worlds (and internet addiction ^^), I think. Though really, wish I weren't so shy. It's very annoying. I can never think of what to say, and there are all these people everywhere. >_> Anyhow, on with the social bloggage! I prefer Howl as well, Eva - but really, there isn't much competition there. XD Christopher-as-Chrestomanci is v. sparkleworthy, though. He wants to be drawn, but, alas, he does not want to look like himself when I try to draw him. *sigh* He looks a bit like Clow only sparklier and more English in my mind. XD (Side note: I want to go to my own library. I went to several bookstores here in Colorado but you see I don't want to spend money since I'm well-nigh broke, and there are so many nice books I want to read!)
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